theunfailingloveofjesus:

It’s true that you are real and alive, a real God who actively helps, protects and blesses us if  we put our trust in you. I’ve proved that your love never fails, because it’s true that it never gives up, it never runs out of me, that even there are a million times I made you disappointed, you never fail to make me feel I have you, I have God – I have Jesus. That even people left me, you’re still there to make me feel, you’re different, yeah it’s because you are my savior. I have thousands of times, I felt I’m dying and alone, and even I seek people who will be there for me, still I feel want to die, and when I’m starting to quit and give up, you’re there. You never let me do those things, you always gave me reason, you always gave me love. You never get tired of me, your love never runs out of me. I love you Jesus, thank you for your unfailing love for me.

theroomofsecrethoughts:

One day, I don’t want to have someone who will give me such reasons why he loves me, because I have beautiful eyes, smile, or because I’m kind and anything else, but because, he knows that I’m with God, and that what’s important to him – a girl who will treat him as a gift of God. A guy who…

theroomofsecrethoughts:

Before, there a lot of times I am watching these people, who are passing by in front of me, and people who are walking together with their peers, and love ones. They were all so busy, and I come to think and wonder, aren’t these people getting tired of their lives? Are they really happy? Do they still want to live? Are they really contented? Aren’t they feeling sad or alone? If yes, why I was feeling different than these people? If they’re truly happy, why I can’t be like them.

theroomofsecrethoughts:

Being someone who you’re not is exhausting. So I wonder why people wouldn’t try to be just who they are. Yeah, maybe they feel unwanted about themselves, that’s why they chose to be like someone else, but that was exhausting, right? Is it being someone who they’re not, was really something made…

theroomofsecrethoughts:

I do love myself in spite of knowing I had lots of imperfections. I love myself even I had lots of scars permanently trapped in me. Even my life had so many bad memories. Even people and problems had given me so much pain. Even my life had so many burdens. Even my life becomes so dreary. Even…

theroomofsecrethoughts:

When I’m quiet surrounded by many people, sometimes people think I’m really bored to talk to and to hang with, but what they do not know, I just really hate to be surrounded by sarcastic people and hate returning it back. Because I hate these people for claiming that they were true to themselves,…

theroomofsecrethoughts:

To my future husband;

This is for you; you know why I choose to stand strong? It’s because for you, I still want to meet and know you.You know why I still can? It’s because for you, I want that one day we’ll meet and you know all the stories, you’ll be proud of me. You know why I’m still fighting even right now I feel dying? It’s because I still believe that one day, you will be with me, and we will fight together. You know why I choose to let go, even it was the reason of my loneliness? It’s because I believe that one day, you will come in my life, that there’s someone who’s waiting for me in the future – someone who will fade my loneliness and will make me feel so happy. You know why I’m still not quitting; even I’m really really tired and dying? It’s because of you, I still want to feel how happy to live with you, I still want to see my kids with you; I still want to build a happy family. I still want to marry the person; God has meant to be with me forever.

I can’t wait to meet you, I can’t wait to see my real smile and laugh again. I can’t wait to feel how to be loved again. Remember I’m just waiting here, I may be sad and alone now, but I’m fighting and believing that one day, I have no reason to feel the emptiness again.

Your future wife

theroomofsecrethoughts:

One day, I want to be more than what I am right now. I don’t want my life would be the same as before, I want more than that. I don’t want to stop from being just this, I want something new to me. As always my friends say, please stay the same no matter what happens, but the fact that no, I never…

theroomofsecrethoughts:

I am just a girl, people may or may not like me – I stick to what I am. I’m not always beautiful, sometimes I look stressful and haggard, but like many girls, I love being called pretty, I love to be recognized by everyone, but like some girls, I don’t believe it. I love compliments, but I don’t accept it. I’m always looking happy, almost always smiling, but it’s not always real. Sometimes I’m not in the mood, and always get irritated when I don’t want to be with anyone else, but always wanting to have someone who will make me smile. People will not always believe me, for I’m not always right, but hate admitting I’m wrong. I love the quietness and being alone sometimes, and don’t want anyone else to bother me, but always wish to have a special someone, who will be there to make me laugh. I’m sad and problematic sometimes, and hate when someone keeps on talking and giving me advice, but love when someone is just there to listen to me and let me speak out. I always work hard at things, but don’t always get what I deserve. I’m not always accepted by many people, but will always love to be understood. People can read me just like an open book, they may be able to predict me, but hide so much. Cos yeah, this is the kind of girl I am.

theroomofsecrethoughts:

I will be always thankful from those people who brought me here, I may let them lead me to darkness and fill me with nightmare with all I wish to happen is to die and disappear, still, they’re the one who’ve been my greatest teacher. They may be brought so much pain in me, the reason of my…